Argh

Nov. 4th, 2008 09:57 pm
liaku: (obama hope)
Obama's won. This is supposed to be a happy event for me. This is the guy I've been cheering on since summer '07 for chrissakes.

I've been emo lately. By lately, I mean just recently. I'm really annoyed about that since, as said, this was supposed to be a happy event.  Instead, I'm feeling terrified of getting older, of looking older, of my mind going with old age, of not existing after death.

It's weird.  I'm getting more and more atheist.  I remember being a devout little kid.  Then I remember doing away with organized religion when I was, like, nine (I was a deeply philosophical little kid).  I remember knowing, without a doubt, that there was something else though.  It was a intuitive thing, something innate, a primitive knowledge without a source.  It was like knowing how to hear or how to believe.  It was just there.   Well, it's not there anymore, and I'm feeling a little morose without it.  Not sure where it went.  Would really like it back.

Anyhow, I'm way behind in my work.

We are the ones we've been waiting for.

ETA: You know, I just realized that I've been tagging my (luckily infrequent) emo posts under "dumb shit" with all my quiz results and crap.  Well, now I've got an "emo" tag.  Go me!

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